Obstacles and Mountains to Climb

Thats how Im feeling right now. As the school year approaches an ending I get more and more confused and long for a sense of direction more and more. Its very hard because Masons education is in my hands. But maybe thats the problem. I shouldnt have it, should I? God should have it. There are so many options and so many pro's and con's as people would say. I really feel like I know whats best for Mason and I could help him more than anyone else. But the minute I even mention homeschooling or public school I get a "look" from who ever Im talking to. Especially his teacher. William is not opposed to the idea and was very on board a while back when thats what we thought was best. I think hes just afraid, like I am, that we aren't capable of doing this ourselves.

I am a firm believer that God is in control and that he puts us in places and situations for a reason. With all my hesitation to put the option of homeschooling in my last blog it turned out to be a good thing. Some people from our church are attending a homeschooling convention this weekend and have graciously invited us to come along. We were so excited! We will probably only be able to attend on Saturday, but this would be our chance to fully explore the option with other people that feel the same way.

So...where do I go from here? I'm really not sure. I know that I need to get my lack of motivation and energy up so that I can function fully in this and every other decision that is approaching my life right now. I know that I need to step out of my comfort zone, which is getting a little easier, and not worry about making a fool of myself. But most importantly...I know that I need to put my family and I first!! I need to make the decision for God and for us, no matter what other people say. Which is alot harder to practice, but Im definitely going to try. :)

I also want to thank the few of you that actually read this for your prayers! I hope everyone has a wonderful day and enjoys this sunshine to the fullest!

:)