Adventures, Kids and Workouts

So I have been threatened that its blog etiquette to not go more than a week without posting. So here I am posting about..well..I'm not really sure. So here are some random things that have been happening. Here goes!!

1) Most of you know that I attended Clintons speech downtown today. I'm not going to get into my beliefs on politics and things like that, but I will say that it was a very eye opening and memorable event for me. I have also attended when Bill Clinton and Obama was in town. I will say that out of all the pictures I took from all 3 events..tonights were the best! But you have to have a great camera to get good pictures inside a school gym with that lighting. I will also tell you that I have never been or ever thought I would be into politics as much as I am. William and I have never voted until this year. WOW!...I can't believe I just said that! Oh well..its what it is.

Here are some pictures from my current political adventures!!

Yes...I have a thing for the buttons although I didn't buy any!

2.) Our school planning for next year is coming along nicely! I have been printing some things off the internet for the twins and a few things for Mason during the summer. As I have been working with the twins recently I am shocked at what they already know and how eager they are to learn! As I was making up my file box for next year...yes I'm weird like that..the twins kept wanting to do the papers I was trying to sort through. Weston came up to me, mind you after the 3rd page, and asked for another one. When I told him no he tells me, "But mom, these papers help me learn!" How can you say no to that! We have told Mason our plans for next year and he is very excited!! We'll see what he thinks once we officially start though. :) No, seriously, he has helped pick out some of the books and we're trying to involve him as much as we can in the process so he adjusts better. The only thing he has said is that he will miss his friends. He is just an outgoing child though that I know he won't have a problem finding friends. He definitely has his dads outgoing genes!!! I'm a little concerned because we don't have a specific place to have "school" other than my kitchen table. I want to put up my calender for the twins in the kitchen (because thats the only place for us to have "school") but Williams not adjusting to that so we have to figure out something else. :) I'm sure we'll make it work somehow!

Oh, by the way, the file box I was telling you about is done!! I have all 30 weeks of the school year filed and in every week I have everyday of that week. So, to make more sense, I can go to that certain day and pull out the file and I know what we have to accomplish for that day! I was so excited! I know..how cheesy!

3.) Renay and I have been working out. We have been 3 times this week. And thats 3 days in a row! I know..me at the gym 3 days in a row..you probably can't believe it! But its true! I ran 2 miles in about 35 minutes. Well, thats jogging/walking but still. My goal as most of you know is to run in the 5k on New Years Eve in NYC!! Well, now everyones talking about running a mini marathon, how cool!! I think that I'm supposed to be motivating Renay, but little does she know, shhh don't tell her :), she motivates me!! wink wink! The other day we saw deer running in the field by the community center and its amazing to think that running to them is a lifestyle..so effortless. That is how I hope it is for me someday! Bring on the marathon!!!!

So this was really long. Sorry! Guess I should post more often huh. :) I will follow up with some pictures recently of the kids.

Confirmation

So I’m not crazy! Through this journey to decide whether to home school we have had our ups and downs. It has been a long process, especially for those who have had to listen to me. :) I think I finally get it! When I was at church tonight they was talking about how we need to open ourselves up to what God wants for us and not what we think we can do for God. Can I just say WOW!

When we were first introduced to the idea of home schooling we teetered back and forth with a lot of factors involved. But both of our hearts said this is what we’re supposed to do! But we strayed away from it. Then we were so graciously, thanks to Renay, invited to what we now consider our church home and it all developed from there. To make a long story short…so I don’t bore you all. God had a plan and we just needed to listen. We ended up in a family group where there are a couple of families that are choosing home schooling. Can we say confirmation! And everything that was said tonight I believe was confirmation that we are doing what God wants! YAY!! I finally got it!

As I look back now I wonder why I let all those little things stop me from what I believed in. I am now…and will continue to be…excited for this journey!

I am starting my curriculum planning for this summer tomorrow!! Yes, I know its early, but I want to get prepared now because I’m not a very organized person. And I’m extremely excited!! I will be slowly ordering Masons curriculum over the next few weeks. If any one has any suggestions, and I mean ANY, I will gladly take them! :)

Ok…so I haven’t posted any pictures lately and thought I would follow up with some more sleeping ones!

So I know two posts in one day, but I had to share my good news! I made my way to Carpenters Son today and can I just say that it was very overwhelming at first. But God is so good! I was talking to someone I know that works there and she said that the homeschooling lady was there! She was so helpful! So I looked through some of the books they had and was very excited, but they just seemed, well...boring. So after I talked and asked a ton of questions I came home on a mission!

The first thing I read on one of the sites I was on changed my outlook! "No curriculum is perfect, so just choose one." Its trial and error. Im not going to find the perfect one. So I set out on a mission of reviewing as much of RainbowResouces.com to make a final decision.Im still not sure on science and history/geography and Im still looking. I have some chosen just in case though. But I am happy to report that I have made decisions on 5 of the subjects!! YAY!!

I am now on a mission for stuff for the twins. I may just use the preschool material I already have, but it will take alot of preparation because I will have to copy alot of it because there are 2 of them. Im afraid if I have to prepare to much of it that I wont get it done. I will probably use print-outs over the summer for all the kids and then start "official" curriculum in the fall.

It just occured to me tonight though that I will probably be upseting the twins. :( They have been so excited to go to "school" like Mason and wont get to experience it. I dont think it will ruin them, and they will adjust fine. It was just something that I hadn't thought of. Im trying to not let that get me down as I know they will love being at home and learning with Mason. They love to imitate him.

Overwhelmed but excited!

So I have been looking online for cirriculum for next year and trying to get prepared. I am not a very organized person so Im trying to get myself there. There is a ton of free worksheets and activities that I want to print out for practice over the summer for Mason and the twins. Just to prepare the twins for whats to come and keep Mason fresh in what he knows. I'm also trying to find a cirriculum for the twins. My ideal thing that I'm looking for is a set of materials that would cover a variety of subjects. I'm having a heard time with that. I'm really nervous about teaching Mason History and Geography(do they still call it that)?

I am very overwhelmed with all the information out there, but I can finally say that Im am VERY excited about this process! I have always loved putting together cirruculum! But I think it would be easier if I could physically see the books so I would have a better idea. I know that Carpenter Son sells homeschooling cirriculum so I think I might go and check it out and see what they have. Does anyone know if Barnes and Nobles sells anything like that or the Family Christian Store?

I am getting ready to start a "spelling book" with the twins. Well..its more like an alphabet book to start off with. I will post pictures as we go through the book! Im curious to see how different or the same they turn out to be!

Stay tuned for pictures...

Inspired

Where to begin! :)

This weekend William and I were so graciously invited to a homeschooling convention and weren't able to make it. But it got me thinking again, oh no right, and so I did a little research. Ok..well..alot of research! If there's something to be found on the internet I can usually find it. :) A lot of you know that we have been thinking about this (homeschooling) since before Christmas and have started thinking again about it more seriously. Taking out the stereotypes and what others might think and thinking more about whats best for our family and whatever God wants. A friend of mine made a suggestion to look up and see what the benefits are to homeschooling a dyslexic child and if anyone has had success compared to them being in public school. WOW! Can I just say that alone was enoucragement! The things people were saying is exactly how I have been feeling. Then I started looking up resources and do you know that there is a ton of free stuff out there on the internet for homeschoolers! I was shocked! It was so uplifting and inspiring though.

One of the things that has been brought to my attention, lots of times, was the struggle to teach Mason with two 4 year olds running around. I am looking back now and wondering why I would have let that stop me. I have been worried about being able to afford putting the twins in preschool. Well, wouldnt it make more sense to teach them while Im teaching Mason! Of course it would!! :) Thats my background. I am fully capable of teaching them. Im not saying that to put myself on a pedestal, by no means is that the way I mean it. What I mean by that is I have a degree in Early Childhood Education so I really am capable of doing it. So I started thinking about how to incorporate all the kids together and found some wonderful ideas! Most of you know that Mason stuggles with reading and really doesnt like it much. Well, if he were at home he could choose to read books that were more interesting to him. Then he would probably enjoy it more. Just one of the major reasons homeschooling would benefit him. I would bore you all with all the details as to why it would benefit him, so I wont.

Do I think I know what Im doing? NO. Do I think that its going to be tough...absolutely. Am I still scared and nervous? YES, YES, YES!! But I will say that the benefits out-weigh my feelings of inadequacy and make me excited!! William was making fun of me getting so excited! We are still praying to find out if this is what God wants for our family, but I fully believe, as I have said before, that God puts people in our path for a reason. I do not believe this is a coincedence that we ended up in the church we are in. It is truely a God-thing!!

So I will leave you with what I heard today. I have heard it before but it struck me different today!

Faith, unless put in action, is not faith at all!

So..we are taking a step of faith and believing God!

:)

I was going to also blog on a sermon we heard at a friends church this week that was so inspiring, but Im still thinking about it. So look for it later!

So as you all know we want to have Mason officially diagnosed Dyslexic and have been praying for a answer on what to do since the testing is so expensive. Last night I get a phone call from the Dyslexia Institute. I didn't answer it because we were eating dinner, but wish I would have. She leaves a message saying that they are going to give us a discount because he went through the assessment!!! Now..how much you ask..I'm not sure because I didnt answer the phone. But I am believing that it is enough to help us out!! This is truely a blessing for us! I can not fully explain how excited I am right now!! :)

And, get this! I'm full of good news today for a change! I have been lacking motivation to work out and am slowly surrounding myself with people to help motivate me. My friends Becky and Jamie are helping me stay focused by going along. We're not going very often but its a start! Then...I've always said how we were blessed with great neighbors! Once again they come through! I saw my neighbor out excercising the other day and told her later that I should have been doing that. She knocked on my door the next day (knowing that I have no motivation) and told me to come join them! Notice I said told me and not asked. She knows had she asked I would of said no. I am very, very sore, but I am going to pull through and do it again today! Oh yeah, and it started with 2 people and is now up to 4, maybe 5 with another neighbor! How great is that!

So I am slowly getting out of my slump and feeling better! I pray that everyone will enjoy this beautiful day!!

:)

By the way, Mason woke up today and he loves gym so William mentioned that it was gym day and Mason looked confused. Williams asked him whats wrong and Mason asked if he was sure it was Thursday. William said yes it is. Mason then proceeded to yell at William because he missed "his church"!! He was furious because we didnt go last night. I love that he loves it so much!! :)

Obstacles and Mountains to Climb

Thats how Im feeling right now. As the school year approaches an ending I get more and more confused and long for a sense of direction more and more. Its very hard because Masons education is in my hands. But maybe thats the problem. I shouldnt have it, should I? God should have it. There are so many options and so many pro's and con's as people would say. I really feel like I know whats best for Mason and I could help him more than anyone else. But the minute I even mention homeschooling or public school I get a "look" from who ever Im talking to. Especially his teacher. William is not opposed to the idea and was very on board a while back when thats what we thought was best. I think hes just afraid, like I am, that we aren't capable of doing this ourselves.

I am a firm believer that God is in control and that he puts us in places and situations for a reason. With all my hesitation to put the option of homeschooling in my last blog it turned out to be a good thing. Some people from our church are attending a homeschooling convention this weekend and have graciously invited us to come along. We were so excited! We will probably only be able to attend on Saturday, but this would be our chance to fully explore the option with other people that feel the same way.

So...where do I go from here? I'm really not sure. I know that I need to get my lack of motivation and energy up so that I can function fully in this and every other decision that is approaching my life right now. I know that I need to step out of my comfort zone, which is getting a little easier, and not worry about making a fool of myself. But most importantly...I know that I need to put my family and I first!! I need to make the decision for God and for us, no matter what other people say. Which is alot harder to practice, but Im definitely going to try. :)

I also want to thank the few of you that actually read this for your prayers! I hope everyone has a wonderful day and enjoys this sunshine to the fullest!

:)

Happy to report....

So I'm happy to report that I made it out twice to do my running last week!! I know it doesnt seem like much, but I was proud of myself! Im doing pretty well and am starting to get my energy back up. I would have loved to have got out more but this weather is so unpredictable. I need to do something else other than run though to build muscle and help me lose weight. I used to do pilates and have thought about doing that again, but its just not much fun. If anyone has any suggestions of any good dvds to buy Im up for them! I am making it a point though to start going to the gym next week!! Do ya hear that...Im announcing to everyone. Now maybe Ill actually make it there. :) Ok, well on Tuesday anyway! I will be spending tomorrow disinfecting my house. We have all been sick this week. William is down with it as of right now! And he is one that never gets sick, so I know when he gets it its bad. So Im up bright and early tomorrow to start cleaning and getting rid of all these germs that are in this house. Maybe then we'll all quit getting sick!

I am also happy to report that, why it may sound silly to all of you or at least the few that actually read this, we made it to Sonic on Friday!! As some of you know my kids LOVE Sonic! And Im not talking about the restuarant, Im talking about the actual character Sonic. So when they heard we had a Sonic they flipped out! :) I, on the other hand, have fallen in love with their Cherry Limeades!!!! YUMMY! Most of you know that Im not much of a water person, but I have told myself that if I will drink water then I can reward myself once in a while with something of than pop. It gives me a little break with the water. I have definitely found myself as treat! Last night we were all still in our Sonic phase from Friday that we decided to all pile up in the car, to get out the house for a little while, and go get something to drink...at Sonic of course! We used to do that often, take drives and enjoy the scenery, but with gas prices up we've cut down alot. It was so nice to just get out again!

On a more serious note. We are going to look at the public schools this week. As most of you know we are in prayer about switching Mason to public schools based on finances and his dyslexia. Its a very hard decision because the school he attends right now will recognize it and work with him, but we are unable to afford it. Where as the public schools we have heard are very reluctant to recognize dyslexia, but can still offer him assistance and of course is alot cheaper. Alot of people say well its an obvious situation...if you cant afford it then you have no choice. But its truely not that easy. We are also considering homeschooling. We have looked at the option a couple times, but dont know too much about it and need to do some more research. In all honesty, Im not sure of my capabilities of teaching him and his ability to learn from me. It seemed like the perfect option when we first explored it, but the more I think about it the more I doubt it and myself. Especially with the twins at home as well. But then I think I know what Mason needs and how he would learn best so who better to teach him than me! If only it were that easy. :) Its a very confusing and difficult situation. So basically I guess what Im saying is that we need prayers going up for us as we make this difficult and tough decision.

Ok, so enough of my ramble! I hope you all have a wonderful and blessed week!

Oh yeah...the picture up top! Isaac has moved up to bigger and better trees! William found him almost hanging from that branch. I am predicting by the time summer rolls around he'll have made his way up ONTO that branch! Do I since emergency room trips this summer?! :)

The Results Are....

Ok, so I will try to do this without being too wordy or technical. A brief history of Mason first. Mason was a pretty average kid, but never did anything as a toddler until right when you would start to worry, then he would suprise us and do it! He was very bright as he could write his name at 2. Until we hit the speech part. As alot of you know that my background is in Early Childhood Education and so this was a huge red flag for me. He was over the age of 3 before he really started to talk and even then it took him a while to get coherent sentences. Even now sometimes he uses the wrong tenses. Anyway, we just thought speech delay, he'll grow out of it. As we entered kindergarten I started to worry because he was having trouble with sounds because of his speech. He was getting it slowly but surely. At the same time we were still trying to determine what hand was more prodominant. Which didnt work out until closer to first grade. I could go the list of details but I would bore you all. Anyway, in kindergarten I brought up dyslexia and the teacher said no that he was just a little slower and would catch on. Well after first grade and then going into second and getting diagnosed with ADD and getting glasses I started to worry as he fell further and further behind. As I consulted with his physician she said maybe hes dyslexic. So the thinking then began again!!

I did ALOT of research and found so much information and realized...wow...maybe I was actually right! To make this long story shorter, Mason had about 95% of all of the "symptoms" of dyslexia. I was floored! He has been tested for learning disability and they couldnt label him because he didnt fall low enough. Hes actually a very bright child he just has a hard time with reading and spelling. His memory is amazing, but he cant apply it afterwards, if that makes any sense. Soon after that the principal at his school contacted me and other parents and said that the Dyslexia Institute was offering free assesments to the school. I jumped on that!! Now mind you that this was just a quick assesement and they have to do further testing. But since I had done my research I was able to give them a little more information than the typical person could at that point. Mason fell borderline, but given the stuff I told her, and the way she felt and based on the testing he IS DYSLEXIC!!! He has what they think is a combination of the 2 types of dyslexia, Dyseidesia and Dysphonesia. Finally!!!! An answer and maybe a solution! Its such a weight lifted off our chest to know that we finally know.

The down fall...in order to get the "official" diagnosis, so that schools will recognize it and help him, we have to take him there and have him fully assessed, and heres the biggy...it cost $465!! Now I will do anything for my son, as all of us would. But thats alot of money to come up with. On top of the "therapy", basically tutoring, they do is very, very expensive. Mind you we're working on one income. SO we could use all your prayers on a couple of things! One, we are debating switching Mason from Faith to public school. Which is a huge decision mind you. But we feel financially it needs to be done and especially now given this new information. Two, that somehow, if this is Gods plan, that we will be able to afford this.

Ok so one more thing! I have always told Mason that God will bring him through this and that he will come out strong in the end and it will be used for Gods purposes. So for his birthday my aunt bought him Winklers (I cant remember his first name) books for children with dyslexia. Well, as you probably figure, Mason does not like to read because its so hard for him. So we take turns reading so that he feels like its fun and understands it. As we're reading he is cracking me up because hes stopping me every couple of sentences saying, "mom, you say that to me!" or "I do that!" It an amazing opportunity for me to teach him that he can overcome this struggle!!

Ok so if I dont stop now Ill keep adding things! So thanks for listening to my ramble.

Dyslexia

Hi everyone! Mason had testing today for dyslexia. We have been through a whirlwind with him and determining how and why he is struggeling. William and I meet with the Dyslexia institution today at 4 to find out. I will wait to post anymore info until after the meeting. But we could use your prayers. He meets all the "typical" symptoms and we want so bad to be able to help him. More to come later!

I've Officially Started!

So...started what you may be saying. I have officially started couch25k, my training to be able to run a 5k. Im hoping that since Im announcing it that it will be sort of an accountability and motivation. :) When I started I thought this was going to be easy...running for a minute and walking for 3, thats not hard. WRONG!! Its alot harder than I thought. Now I know why they said only start out with 30 minutes. But I can say successfully that my friend and I did it!! It felt so good to have started, the problem now is keeping it going! I am asking everyone for help..ya I know I dont do that often..keep me accountable!

On another note. Today before I went for my run I thought I would have half a peanut butter sandwich to get a little something in my stomach but not a big meal. I was curious and thought that I would see how many calories were in the peanut butter. I should have never done that!! I love peanut butter and when I eat it I use a ton! Not anymore! There are 190 calories in 2 tablespoons of peanut butter!!!! So I have basically been eating over 400 calories in my sandwich. WOW!! Guess I need to find another kind, huh.

I hope everyone had a wonderful day and got outside to enjoy the awesome weather!!

Welcome Becca!

I would like to welcome my best friend to the "blogging" world! We have done some of my all time favorite things together...we've been to NY twice together...and we all know how much I love NY. We have shared a TON of experiences together and I dont know what my life would look like without her in it! Im glad to know that she will be joining me on this bandwagon. Love ya Becky!

To many more road trips together. 2009 Tour...cant wait!

Outside Fun! :)

Today was a gorgeous day! It was the perfect day to get outside and thats just what we did. I took several pictures to show off our fun time outside today! Enjoy!


We did alot of bike riding today! William and I hope to invest in some bikes this summer so we all can enjoy the fun. The kids had a race with the neighbors. Sadly...Mason got beat by a girl. :) They had so much fun though. We also went and fixed Isaacs training wheels. He rode his bike for an hour!

You may wonder why there are no pictures of Weston riding his bike. Well, he was napping. And you guessed it...I managed to take another sleeping picture! :) Our Italian Greyhound, Zeke, thought it would be a comfy place to sleep!

Then the boys, Weston and Isaac, retreated to making sand castles with the buckets in the garage. They're not ready for the beach..are they. :) Excuse the mess in the background. We were cleaning out the garage.

Ok..so when I thought I day was done I was so surprised. The boys had apparently found footballs in the garage. They went out back and were throwing them around. I look out the window to see this... Yes..it is Isaac climbing my pear tree! Apparently his football had gotten stuck and in his words... "I was just gettin my football out of the tree Mom." It was so funny that I didnt say anything to him until he got out of the tree. Then I look back out the window to see him and Weston TRYING to get the balls stuck so they can climb it again! :)

Needless to say we have a very enjoyable day! I hope you all had a great day as well!

Attitude of a Child

So this is my 3rd post this day! I guess Im getting the hang of it. Tonight after dinner William and I were talking and I made the comment that I was getting fat. I know...not a very positive comment, but I said it. Well, Mason was in the room and said, "Mom, your not fat, your fine! Your just like have been before." It was so very sweet of him to say that. My heart sank and I realized that I have to watch what I say around the boys. If only I had the attitude of a child sometimes.

So I had a different picture up and William said that it wasnt a good one to put up because Mason was making a monkey face and didnt go with the compliment. So I changed it! But Ill post it later because its a cute picture!

Ok..Im going to figure this out!

Ok. So Im going to try this picture thing again. I thought while Im messing around that i would show off some of the twins cutest and funniest sleeping positions. :)

This is an old one, but so cute! Mason jumping on the opportunity!

I wish I could just fall asleep anywhere!

I have one of the legs intertwined (spelling ?) but I cant find it! They do it all the time. Its so precious! :)

And we have to include one of Mason!

Ok. So I could post so many more! William teases me that we have more pictures of the twins sleeping than awake. :) But they get themselves in the strangest positions. So I think I figured it out, obviously. Im not sure if it the easiest way, but it works!

Grass is getting greener!

Ok..by that I dont mean in my life. I mean literally! The grass is getting green. I guess its all the rain we've been getting, but its nice to know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. The weather has to warm up..right?!

So I havent been posting because, to be honest, I dont know what to post. I have been really frustrated and feeling down on myself lately and didnt want to announce my problems to the world. Or the small group of people that would actually read this. We have been going through alot lately, financely, emotionally, physically and spiritually. Part of it I owe to winter depression. I never thought that it would happen to me, but yes...I got it! Most of you know that we have finally found a wonderful church, but I guess what I mean by spiritually is, where is God in all of this mess that we're going through? I know the answer to that and I know that we are allowed to go through things for a reason and a season, but I still can help but ask. Being a stay at home mom isnt easy financely or physically and this winter has been really rough on me. I wouldnt trade staying at home for anything...I LOVE IT!! And the thought of changing it makes me wanna cry! But money-wise its very hard. I would like to think of myself as a very frugal mom, but I dont know what else to be frugal with. I dont have a huge support system within my family, other than my husband, so it very hard. Its really hard for some people to understand our situation especially since they havent been there. And I know thats not their fault and they're trying, but its not helping.

So I cant believe I just said all of that. For most of you that know me Im a very inward person and I dont share my life with many, for many reasons, but mainly past ones. But in venting all this out I realize something. God often needs to yell at me to get my attention. Maybe its not a coincidence that I noticed the grass was greener today and that there was light at the end of the tunnel. I meant it literally, but there is another meaning to it. I guess venting your frustration can help sometimes, even when its hard to open up like that.

On a good note. As I said before William and I dont have a huge support system, but have started asking our neighbors for help..and its working out nicely! :) We had talked about it before with them, but have finally begun to do it. We watch their kids when she needs to make a quick run or until her husband gets home and she then returns the favor and so on. We are both stay at home moms by the way, but sometimes its easier and quicker to just run in and out if you dont have the kids. :) I feel really blessed to have wonderful neighbors! I really mean that! When we first moved into this house people were like oh, you live in the old people neighborhood. We never looked at it that way. And by the way...its not the old people neighborhood. I was amazed at the amount of kids around here.

Ok, so thats enough of my rambling for today! I tried to post a picture at the then end of my kids with the neighbors running around playing Batman and Superman, but it put it at the beginning. Ill keep working on it. Check back just in case I figure it out!

Lack of Sleep

So I'm sitting here so tired, but unable to fall asleep...as usual. Someone of you may not know that ever since I had the twins...almost 4 years ago...I dont sleep much. At first I just figured my body got all thrown off because of the nursing and adjusting. Now Im not sure what the excuse is. I can go days without sleep and then I crash. Which isnt very good. I used to be able to go a couple weeks and then I needed to take a day long nap, which William always helped force me to do it. Thanks babe! But now its seems that I cant go much longer than a couple days. And Im getting grouchy. :( Not good. I was really excited when the weather started getting nicer and thought that I would be on the go more, with the kids and running, that it would help me sleep better again. But instead the weather is getting worse and...I cant believe Im saying this...but so am I. I have tried everything I can think of. Im not into the hot tea..dont like the taste of it. I also tried where they say no tv late at night...well that didnt work because all my shows come on late at night when the kids are in bed. :)

So your probably asking why Im even telling you this. Well...Im in some need of some advice. if anyone has or is going through this and has found something that works I would love to hear it! Im not one for medicine and I havent found a doctor i feel comfortable in confiding in, but Im at the point where Im willing to try anything.

So..some good news! Tomorrow I will be on the go! Im venturing to the store to try and buy some healthier meals and snacks that fit my budget! Wish me luck. The boys and I have a playdate at the mall with some friends on Weds and I look forward to it every week. Some adult conversation! woo hoo! Then, if some of you dont know, my family and I have found an amazing church! We have started attending the Bible studies there, as well as on Sundays, and the kids LOVE the childrens program. I spent so many years fighting with Mason to go to church and now he's the one shoving us out the door an hour early because "I dont wanna be late Mom!." Its the coolest thing. I love that he's so excited about God!...and Im sure the playing too. :)

Ok..so I guess that enough for tonight. Im off to watch a show I taped and maybe Ill fall asleep and get a little nap in. Good night!