Grass is getting greener!

Ok..by that I dont mean in my life. I mean literally! The grass is getting green. I guess its all the rain we've been getting, but its nice to know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. The weather has to warm up..right?!

So I havent been posting because, to be honest, I dont know what to post. I have been really frustrated and feeling down on myself lately and didnt want to announce my problems to the world. Or the small group of people that would actually read this. We have been going through alot lately, financely, emotionally, physically and spiritually. Part of it I owe to winter depression. I never thought that it would happen to me, but yes...I got it! Most of you know that we have finally found a wonderful church, but I guess what I mean by spiritually is, where is God in all of this mess that we're going through? I know the answer to that and I know that we are allowed to go through things for a reason and a season, but I still can help but ask. Being a stay at home mom isnt easy financely or physically and this winter has been really rough on me. I wouldnt trade staying at home for anything...I LOVE IT!! And the thought of changing it makes me wanna cry! But money-wise its very hard. I would like to think of myself as a very frugal mom, but I dont know what else to be frugal with. I dont have a huge support system within my family, other than my husband, so it very hard. Its really hard for some people to understand our situation especially since they havent been there. And I know thats not their fault and they're trying, but its not helping.

So I cant believe I just said all of that. For most of you that know me Im a very inward person and I dont share my life with many, for many reasons, but mainly past ones. But in venting all this out I realize something. God often needs to yell at me to get my attention. Maybe its not a coincidence that I noticed the grass was greener today and that there was light at the end of the tunnel. I meant it literally, but there is another meaning to it. I guess venting your frustration can help sometimes, even when its hard to open up like that.

On a good note. As I said before William and I dont have a huge support system, but have started asking our neighbors for help..and its working out nicely! :) We had talked about it before with them, but have finally begun to do it. We watch their kids when she needs to make a quick run or until her husband gets home and she then returns the favor and so on. We are both stay at home moms by the way, but sometimes its easier and quicker to just run in and out if you dont have the kids. :) I feel really blessed to have wonderful neighbors! I really mean that! When we first moved into this house people were like oh, you live in the old people neighborhood. We never looked at it that way. And by the way...its not the old people neighborhood. I was amazed at the amount of kids around here.

Ok, so thats enough of my rambling for today! I tried to post a picture at the then end of my kids with the neighbors running around playing Batman and Superman, but it put it at the beginning. Ill keep working on it. Check back just in case I figure it out!