Anxiety...

So I'll start with the good stuff. First of all 2 posts in 2 days, whats up with that. :-) Westons eye check-up with very well. Happy to report, well he doesn't think so, he does not need glasses. So Lindsay, you'll at least be able to tell them apart when Isaac is wearing his glasses. LOL His vision is excellent, even with his lazy eye. The doctor is working on researching whether we should do surgery to fix it or do some t.v. therapy. Basically he can't see well REALLY far away, but he's great otherwise. His vision, even with his lazy eye is extremely good. We had three dentist appointments today and they all went very well. Mason has 2 small cavities, very catastrophic for him, I think I have developed at complex for him because I'm a little anal with their teeth, okay alot anal. He will eventually have to get braces because the spaces that we thought we great are too big, but other than that he's great. LOL The twins are fantastic and no cavities and got their first cleaning and all that jazz today.

Tomorrow is my birthday!! Happy Birthday to me!!! As my birthday present I am going to visit some friends in Detroit and see my all-time fav show Rent..hopefully from the front row! Here's where the anxiety comes in to play. I will be traveling alone. :-( I have never traveled alone before...I repeat never! So, you can see why I am having a major anxiety attack. All the what-ifs are running through my head. I usually get like this before a trip, but never this bad. I didn't realize I had anxiety so bad. I am very excited for this, but can't help feeling guilty leaving and spending money while we are in this crappy time with no job. I know that once I get there (if I get there is what my head says) I will have a great time. We both agreed and decided that its a good thing for me to go and have some fun (and its a fairly cheap way bc I have friends I'm staying with), so its not even that we disagree or anything, but I just can't stop the anxiety.

So I could use some major prayers...great travel conditions, protection over my car and the cars around me, protection over William and the boys while I'm gone, and that I won't have a major attack as I'm leaving the house and can feel at ease about driving alone. Oh, and I'm worried about getting lost.

Ok, I'm off to go pack and then snuggle in bed with Weston, he wanted to sleep with me tonight. :-) I, feeling guilty, let him. :-)

Thanks for the prayers in advance!

**Isaac asked me today when I was leaving for my trip and said he wanted me to leave soon. How nice huh? The reason...I told him he gets his glasses when I get back, he wants them bad! So I guess its a good thing he just wants me to leave so I can hurry up and come back. :-)